A week to go on this higher Remeron dose before I can say whether it's doing anything.

I did have a good day on Monday. I managed to get a lot of stuff done and the depression wasn't so bad, so I call that day a definite win.

Since then the body pains and negative thoughts are still there. I'm trying to think my way out of this with the help of some online CBT my pdoc suggested (it's a free course ordered by the health department. It's targeted at younger people but it's still relevant). I know most of what they are covering and have done it before but I'm doing the exercises anyway.

I got out for a walk at lunchtime a couple of times this week. I focused on the walk instead of my usually negative thoughts. I felt better during the walks so that's also a win.

A couple of wins this week is pretty good, although the depression and body pains are still present.