I’ve been thinking about how many times I haven’t given a step to connect with people due to my soon self-exclusion. Due to my soon certainty that I didn’t deserve their company. I’m writing this not to awake pity. I know it’s sad, and it brought me a lot of limitations. I wanted to vent because it’s very hard. I’m more angry at myself than sad.
Any deep relation or contact had and have to lay on a lot of reassurance that I am welcome through comfortability and insistence on the other part.

I do understand the other person. It’s hard to deal with someone who has such a low self-confidence and many times doesn’t dare to give you a needed feedback. So, I don’t have a complain on anybody, just the opposite. I’m thankful for the effort these people have done or still do for me.