You talk to your doctor~BUT you need to some soul searching .
Meds. may change who you are for the good or bad .Most meds. for bipolar are mood staberlizes which can level off or make it so you have no feelings at all. My self I hated it I would hurt myself just to feel the pain hich was all that i could feel .

I take Antideressants and any meds I have for manic all as need
To me being manic is like breathing air I cant live with out it .