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Originally Posted by bpcyclist
So, the string of Incredible Consecutive Nights of Sleep has ended. Ovaaah!!!! Zero sleep tonight, as I write this, wide awake, at 0334 PST. Oh well, I was pretty sure it was waaaay too good to last.
On the plus side, I did get quite a lot done on the book yesterday. It is about 55,000 words now. I was initially thinking it was only going to be about 60,000, but now, it looks more like 80,000 is where I will end up. That's fine. The work I did yesterday was a bit triggering, as I had to discuss the time where one of the hospital psychiatrists lied in a hearing under oath (yes, it is true), thus, delaying my discharge by what turned out to be about another year or so. Lotta corruption there. Basically, sometimes people lie in order to keep patients in the hospital longer and, since there is really no oversight, nothing can really be done. Long story. She's an idiot.
Anyhow. since I am up, I am going to make good use of my time and go for an early ride. The weather has been spectacular here--clear and warm. It should be a nice morning for an early ride.
Hugs and love to all!!!!!
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Maybe it is just a fluke day since you were triggered a bit. Hopefully the sleep will return.
That's great about the progress on the book. I've been writing as well. It keeps getting longer and longer. My husband wants to help me edit. He's in for a ride
I am so sorry that happened. I experienced versions of that while in IP and IOP. I heard patients talking about how they lie just to keep you longer and milk your insurance as it is essier than turning over the beds faster. They do this especially to easy and compliant patients. I thought maybe they were paranoid. Nope. At IOP I did 6 weeks and I had zero symptoms of mania, psychosis or depression the entire time. I was there to learn coping skills and begin to process what had happened.
They told me initially 6 weeks, so I let it play out even though I was learning nothing new after 4. At 6 weeks they told me 2 to 4 more weeks were required for me. They had just changed therapists and it was her recommendation. She added zero value to our sessions and had us doing worksheets we could Google for ourselves all day. I was furious. My husband was watching and teaching my kids while I was away and we couldn't aford for him to lose his job. I stormed the director's office and demanded a meeting with the pdoc, the therapist, the director, the nurse and my insurance rep and my family. I also requested all of my paperwork and session notes which would show I was fully participatory, on starter doses of only one med and asymptomatic, demonstrated understanding of the materials offered (so much so that they asked me to facilitate more than once) and that I was doing well at home. I wanted my insurance rep to hear all of that and then look me in the face and tell me that warranted 4 more weeks.
30 min later the nurse came in with my discharge paperwork. It made me angry and I wanted to expose them, but I needed to be home with my kids.
Thank you so very much for sharing your story. I think it is truly very important work you are doing.