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Old Feb 22, 2020, 09:54 AM
trishstoppedsmoking trishstoppedsmoking is offline
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Originally Posted by 3rd rock View Post
I have been told by a psychiatrist that when my depression is at its worst I can experience symptoms of psychosis, which do not involve hallucinations of any kind but rather delusional beliefs that centre on a fear of being followed and/or attacked. At a job I worked several years ago I would often become convinced that specific coworkers were following me home, for instance. Fortunately, I haven't experienced this kind of psychosis in quite a while, and my depression usually resembles classic major depressive disorder without psychotic features. Is this what you mean?
Yes, this is what I mean. It could be major depression with delusion, hallucinations, or hypochrondira with or without mood related psychosis.

I generally have hypochondria.

My psychiatrist also said that it is an indicator of how bad the depression is.

I also have sometimes mixed with suicidal thoughts, and there are days when I just don't know if I'll make it.

I know it has a high level of morbidity and mortality ...

I'm on 3 anti-depressants, and anti-psychotic and an antianxiolytic.

Right now, I'm waiting for biopsy results to determine whether or not I have oral cancer and the waiting is so difficult.... It's hard for me to reign my mind in.

I'll probably call a crisis line today.

I was hospitalized twice last year and almost took my life in 2014 when I bottom out with a massive breakdown ... it took all my strength to stay alive ... and I'm so highly functioning that I wasn't admitted to hospital ... I actually lived ina different province at the time and they're having a hard time keeping up with the psych demands ... there was no room in emerg and I actually stayed in the waiting room all night suffering ... a terrible experience and I wouldn't wish this on anyone...

Is your MDD pretty much controlled? Mine isn't, I'm afraid.
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