Damn, I keep dig'n myself a deeper whole here. LOL!

What I meant was... I worry about her telling me, that I am not doing my part, and therefore therapy has reached the point of diminished return. I don't really see this as her rejecting me, she would simply be acknowledging that I am not engaging. Or maybe that I am rejecting her help. Secondly, I worry about this but, intellectually I know I am in control of when therapy ends. She is not going to tell me straight out that I shouldn't come anymore. Therefore this is not a real FEAR on my part, just a worry.

Is this really what others define as a fear of rejection? I guess I just envision rejection in terms of being deliberately pushed away due to some physical or mental flaw.

..I don't know....maybe I do fear rejection.... I have always been determined to be a low maintenance patient. I don't allow myself to call between sessions, ask for additional appointments, and remain aware of the time during a session. I also limited myself to no more than 1 written communication between sessions, which I have since discontinued all together now. Maybe fear of rejection is behind these actions. Then again maybe I am just reminding myself that I'm the one who needs to take care of me.

Did I just jump back in the whole, again? :-)