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nonightowl · Feb 22, 2020, 01:56 PM

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Originally Posted by missyou

Like you, nonightowl, I live alone. I am the last of my family with the death of my sister 10 mos ago whom I lived with and was my best friend. It is very hard dealing with being alone. My sister and I moved from Florida to TN a few years ago and I really do not have any friends here. I am planning on moving back to FL in the fall where I have a few friends left. It is overwhelming all the things I must do alone in order to move. The loneliness and grief is sometimes unbearable.

Yes it is.

I was going to go to a grief group again, but I don't have the energy. Or time. I don't feel like filling out forms, doing an "intake" and most of all pay fees. It's hard to find free or very low cost groups, on anything. And even with that, some people pissed me off in these groups.

I might read this book, Finding Meaning, the 6th stage of grief by David Kessler:

https://grief.com/sixth-stage-of-grief/

I keep putting it off, not sure if I'll read it even in summer when a year has passed. Seems "meaning" is another stage not mentioned. It comes after acceptance, not that the process is linear.

Just the thought of having to move is overwhelming for me. I don't like change, and let's face it, a move is a DRASTIC change. I can't afford to live in my place for not much longer. But it does depend on many "if's".

Not only do I have grief, I can't even share it with only surviving family, my estranged brother. And my STUPID parents made HIM the trustee of the family trust. He hasn't spoken a word to me since dad died last summer. So him in charge of the trust is the fox guarding the henhouse.

I don't trust him to do the right thing.

He doesn't communicate anything to me, and I had to go through a lot just to get him to send a copy of the damn trust. He sure took his time too.

Now I have to have a lawyer to look after my interests and explain things. And I don't trust lawyers either.

Sigh.....I couldn't find a pro-bono or low cost lawyers for estate matters, and I'm worried about bills. I hope this lawyer will take pity on me since I'm on Medicaid and food stamps. I mean why do they have to be so expensive????

It felt good to get that out.