I just find myself reflecting on things. Since I've been stuck in this depressive episode for a long time now, it seems almost like it defines me, if that makes any sense. Also, lately I feel as if I need to be alone again. I wasn't isolating, but things weren't going well. Now, I feel the need to go back into my shell.

I re-start therapy next week with my last therapist, who I only had 2 sessions with and am not 100% comfortable with. I hope she meets me where I am at, because last time it felt like she was pushing me too far too soon. Certain things made me feel invalidated. I guess I need to be more vocal. I'm nervous about therapy, but it is better than the alternative (IOP, drastic med changes when I'm not ready to do so). Hopefully this will all pay off.