Lay down and tried to sleep at about 9 but it was a total no-go. It's fine. I'm up. Will try to be productive and sleep when I need to. Have had lots of practice with that these past months!! Don't really think I am getting breakthrough mania per se, though am a bit revved and amped, if I am being honest. Will need to keep an eye on it. Don't want to get psychotic again. Just hate that.

This illness is so weird and so sneaky and so cunning. It lulls me into thinking that things weren't really as bad as they actually, in fact, were, when I am feeling better. Well, guess what? They were that bad! It tries to trick me into letting my guard down. There seems to be this issue of sort of losing touch with the memory of my pain, (as I feel better) at play. It's strange. Need to be on guard. This is why people decide to stop all their meds or start drinking again or whatever. They think they're cured. I know I will never be cured. Not to worry.

Hugs and love to all!!!!