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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
I'm questioning my diagnosis again. It's a bit complicated, but... I have been on rexulti for 3 years (give or take) and have not had a manic episode that I can remember. Normally, one would think, "great, that means the med is working!" but rexulti isn't approved for treating mania, so that means either my low dose of lamictal (200mg) is preventing mania, or I don't have a BP diagnosis. Plus, I'm feeling fine off rexulti. No anxiety today, unlike yesterday.
I kinda wonder if I just have ADHD, and that ADHD causes my depression/anxiety. My therapist says I've been "manic," but now I just think that was my ADHD showing through (since my ADHD is normally masked by depression, and I guess I wasn't depressed for once...?). I can't recall any elevated mood states.
I don't know what I'm saying. I think I just want off these meds altogether and to just take ritalin. No more Zoloft, no more lamictal, and no more rexulti (well, I'm not taking it anymore, but you know what I mean). I fail to see what any of those meds do except for ritalin.
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You were manic a few months back. You were experiencing rapid speech and your thoughts were jumbled. You were unable to concentrate at work and got behind on your assignments. You had a ton of ideas and tasks that you wanted to pursue, but you couldn't focus. You were displaying very risky driving behavior and at one point you weren't eating because you didn't have food and were afraid to shop. Several of us recognized the symptoms as manic and encouraged you to get help. I believe your therapist also agreed the behavior was manic.
You have also had several bouts with paranoia and delusions. I am not diagnosing you, but all of these behaviors are not caused by your meds and they are symptomatic of something other than ADHD. I am glad the anxiety has lessened today. That is great, but you need to experience true stability for a period of months and perhaps even years before you could know one way or the other. For example, I've been med free and stable since September, but I'm still not in the clear.
Think on this a bit more Blue. Go back through your post history if you need to see it.
