What about calling your Pdoc for a possible Med tweak or change or even a AP for a few days ? Today? If your tossing a bottle of pills in your mouth and physically laying hands on someone in anger you need help NOW..

What if you get so agitated again you take your pills and no one will know ? Maybe you harm yourself physically ? Your Mom ? Your partner again? Sure your Mom is coming over and your partner is around but if your a mess you could easily leave the room swallow whatever and no one know.

I think your playing with fire and you need help now.

Stay safe

Glad you got a quick appt. I’m sure he is traumatized by watching you dump a bottle of pills in your mouth and for physically shoving him. I’m sure he will be okay..... but I am almost certain that if you are becoming unwell again in the future he is going to expect you to reach out for help much sooner or make the calls or drive you to IP whether you want to go or not.

Your going to have to agree to something like this. So once things settle down you both need to sit and make up a safety plan, in writing.

I won’t go into details but I scared my husband once years back and we made an agreement that even if I don’t think I need help , I will trust his judgement.

Stay safe