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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
I'm questioning my diagnosis again. It's a bit complicated, but... I have been on rexulti for 3 years (give or take) and have not had a manic episode that I can remember. Normally, one would think, "great, that means the med is working!" but rexulti isn't approved for treating mania, so that means either my low dose of lamictal (200mg) is preventing mania, or I don't have a BP diagnosis. Plus, I'm feeling fine off rexulti. No anxiety today, unlike yesterday.
I kinda wonder if I just have ADHD, and that ADHD causes my depression/anxiety. My therapist says I've been "manic," but now I just think that was my ADHD showing through (since my ADHD is normally masked by depression, and I guess I wasn't depressed for once...?). I can't recall any elevated mood states.
I don't know what I'm saying. I think I just want off these meds altogether and to just take ritalin. No more Zoloft, no more lamictal, and no more rexulti (well, I'm not taking it anymore, but you know what I mean). I fail to see what any of those meds do except for ritalin.
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It is very common for people with bipolar disorder to seriously question the diagnosis, in part, because for many, it is quite episodic in nature and there are quiescent periods where everything seems great. In fact, I personally believe this quality and experience should almost be a part of the diagnostic criteria for bp (I am not entirely kidding here)--that's how common it is.
If you decide to stop all your meds, I would urge you to have a plan in place of what will happen if you have a recurrence. If you actually have the disorder and do d/c all your medication, you will almost certainly have a recurrence, likely a pretty significant one, based on all the reseatch on this topic. That is just what the data all show. Of course, some people can fly off their meds and that is great, but it is a fairly small number overall.
Sending you support!!! I support you no matter what you decide, blue. Hang in there!!!!!!!!