What do you seek clarity on though with him? How he feels about you?

If you truly want the marriage to dissolve on its own without your influence, you would have to separate yourself entirely from the situation and also NOT confess that you’re in love with him. Also understand that the divorce process can take a year or more. To avoid any harm to anyone, you would have to keep your distance for a long time. If he filed papers, that’s one thing. But until then you would have to keep a far distance.