Hi blue, I am very concerned about you.

I see you are circling back to the ideas and the arguments you tend to embrace when you are becoming ill.

This idea that you suffer from ADHD and anxiety (only) is truly nonsensical. As fern has suggested, please review your posts if you are interested in knowing the truth about what does go on for you.

You are currently showing signs of a lack of insight. You have cycled back into this period of denial of the severity of your illness. You tend to revisit these ideas and this state of mind again and again, enough so some of us recognize this as a part of your illness and part of your cycling when you stop meds and/or need a med tweak.

You've told us all about your severe paranoia. You have told us of these voices, both a male and a female, who both instruct you to do certain things, usually things like: Instructing you to take your life, telling you that you are stupid, and the list goes on.

You have reported having federal agents surrounding your home and have been scared to death for days/nights on end.

You have repeatedly been convinced it is your mission to save the world, about which you are delighted': yet, you suffer great distress trying to figure out how to execute your lofty mission.

You have told us about much more than I have listed here.

this is much more than an attention deficit and/or an anxiety issue.

I cannot blame you for wanting to deny your illness.
It's tough to accept and to deal with.

You are very bright. Your life holds a lot of promise. You current job, as well as your overall work history are very important. You live on your own and cannot afford to lose your job.

You have repeatedly told me that you do not want people around you to know about your illness. It's important you ask for help now. Should you lose control, there would be no way to guarantee your privacy .

So, yes, I am very concerned. I am totally convinced you are becoming increasingly ill, according to what YOU have reported to us, repeatedly.

I hope you'll truly consider all your friends here have written to you, in hopes of keeping you safe and as well as possible. We have no reason to lie to you. We do care very much about you, Blue.

What about it? How can you discount all your friends are expressing to you?

I'm hoping you'll seek help.
I love you!