Darn it, money issues are irritating. T___T *hug* I'm sorry money constraints made it hard for you to get the help you need, and that that drove her away. Please remember that you're not your bipolar and ADHD problems, that they may be a part of you but they aren't only you and it was them that drove her away, it wasn't your fault.

Are there local support groups you can go to? Government aid for you to recieve?

Love's a hard thing, huh? It'll take a while to find the one, but you sound like a good guy. ^_^ Good luck, I'll be thinkin' about ya. *hug*