I have to admitt that I was hesitant to post to you Rose. I am still struggling badly with what I experienced that was so toxic with my own sister that I am actually still dealing with. Yet, I can totally relate to being on the recieving end of being treated in ways that for me were extremely gut wrenching and severely so.

Your being distant from it the way you were may have helped you avoid a lot more toxic than you realize too. Also, this sister may be the apple that was actually closest to the tree (your father). And she developed some traits that are very similar to the very traits your father had where you could never experience any true closeness with him.

In recalling what you had shared a while ago, your father's attitudes and strong opinions had an affect on the self esteem of all three of you.