(((wanttoheal))) Hugs if you want them.

I can understand you frustration. It must be difficult and so exhausting. I wish I could help more than just words but you have my support and understanding.

Do not delete the post. It will be better for you to gain the support. It is not whining...it is asking for a bit of help. We all need that once in a while.
Take care and post some more. It will help.