Well I am doing pretty well today. Why can't I just always be this person? It's like I am a different person half the month. Going to hold onto this while I can. I went out to lunch at a tea cafe and got some quiche and an ice tea. It was a nice break from the office. I felt pretty productive at work. I didn't go to the gym today, but will tomorrow.

Also, I looked into akathisia more due to the resident saying it sounded like that's what happened to me, plus the discussions around here. Well, I am like 99.9% sure that's what happened with me when I took Lexapro. It makes more sense than a mood episode (I think), because I had symptoms within hours of taking the medication. I don't think that is how it works with mood episodes, but I am not a psychiatrist. I will discuss with my main psychiatrist next time we meet. I still get restlessness, irritable, and have a hard time sitting still from time to time, and feel really sensory sensitive. I wonder if that is related to the reaction I had, or not. It's been like a year and a half, so don't think I should still be having problems. I think if I tell my therapist she'll tell me it's anxiety, and maybe it is, but it's an inner skin crawling sort of restlessness that reminds me of a milder version of what happened when I took Lexapro. So, I don't know. I also don't know if it matters because I'd probably just be given advice on how to reduce anxiety either way. My psychiatrist offered me a benzodiazepine last time, but I don't want to mess with that I don't think.