I always thought the only one i had to be accountable to was myself.

But after 13 yrs of therapy i.learned to be accountable to Ts.

Now that ive quit, on one hand its good, but on the other hand i realise maybe i miss it and maybe some of the things i used to do it was because i knew i would have had to tell the Ts.

Right now, after 2 months of being on my own i miss that part a lot and i wonder how "normal people" (not in therapy) do. Maybe they have someone else to be accountable to but i have no one and its... weird and i really feel lonely and abandoned to myself.

What do you think?

Mostly, i think im afraid of making big steps without anybody knowing...