Yes, TishaBuv, I totally understand the posting and deleting, been there myself. The gravity of it can get overwhelming. Some of these symptoms can also develop due to exposure to alcoholism, both in one's childhood and as an adult as there are many narcissistic traits that are wrapped up in that disease. I know for myself, it's been a part of my life my entire life as both my father and my husband struggled with binge alcoholism and the cycles of the Dr. Jeckle and Mr. Hyde that these individuals present. Many will talk about how there is a period where their SO can be wonderful and kind, and then also be mean and verbally abusive and controlling and intrusive and entitled and dismissive and unappreciative.

What It's Like to Be a Complex Trauma Survivor of Narcissistic Abuse