Yes, it appears you have a clear pattern. I'm basing that on your own words provided here. Try to put yourself in a neutral observer like mindset and read your post. Given all of the data and how all of the professionals who see this all the time have assessed you, do you still question it?

Even if you toss the label out it seems you have extreme experiences that require professional intervention and medication. Would it be helpful if you could start with a belief like that without labels?

I wish you the best while in inpatient this time. Take a look at the people there with you with similar labels. Do you find them to be less valuable as a human because they have a diagnosis and need help from time to time? Do you refute their labels? If not, ask yourself why a diagnosis can be ok for them and not for you even though many of the patterns and symptoms are the same. Maybe part of your inpatient experience can focus on accepting that you need assistance and you're not alone in that.

Also, I wonder if your energy would be better served contemplating how you can learn what you need to and gather the tools necessary to thrive despite your condition as opposed to wondering if you have been labeled correctly. You seem to have the spirit of a fighter, but it might be time to choose a more value add battle.

This is all just food for thought. These are difficult circumstances to make peace with and we all have to do it in our own time and in our own way.