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Old Feb 28, 2020, 11:23 AM
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It sounds like your father may have been narcissistic and insisted everyone do things HIS way and his love was extremely conditional.

This can lead to what you describe as:
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I wake up feeling a sinking sense of dread, feeling trapped, powerless, helpless, and full of anger.
It's only natural that talking about things you experienced in your past with your father can trigger you to re-experience events that caused you to have these emotions and react with anger towards him, fighting him as a way to not experience these trapped and powerless feelings.
Thanks for this!
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