Bp, you and Blanche are so strong. I truly marvel at your fighting spirit. I believe in you both, absolutely.
Music or any hobby/avocation can be so healing. Timing is everything. When the time is right,hopefully it can mean joy for you again BP.
I grew up in a time when they were big on the follow your dream approach. Please excuse me for thinking out loud here. I still have career choices to make. Luckily there is more than one way to embrace some of the glamor careers, not just in the stereotypical way. I loved to write but picked ad writing, which was WAY too competitive for me. I was very introverted when I started out.I could have taught English and had a very secure retirement very early on which would have allowed me to progress to other things later after teaching became underfunded and very stressful. Unlike my immature younger self, I know you two would talk to people in a chosen field to fine tune your choice. Here I am once again reminding my self to do the same. Some young people on the forum are struggling to find direction, so I am sharing this in large part for them. THE EXAMPLE OF COURAGE FROM BOTH OF YOU INSPIRES ME!