I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so awful. All i can say is i've been where you are and it does get better, much better. Just hang in there. I'm so glad i did or i would never have met my dog, or bought my condo or played Scrabble. When i'm at the end of my rope i call the crisis line. It's been an hour since you posted. Do you feel any better? Any relief? Keep posting so we can keep an eye on you.