Binge alcoholics tend to put their partners into THEIR cycle of drinking pattern. They can be loving and caring for a while and then go out and binge believing it's ok to do so. As time goes on they gradually get worse. Their true priority is "the alcohol escape" and that gradually gets worse over time. They do not know how to care and respect, yet because they CAN be caring and loving it can really feel like "underneath is a good person".

Honestly, it's really better for you to cut him out of your life, it's even better for your little son too. Your baby needs a mommy that can feel safe and give him healthy love, not a mommy who is constantly stressed due to the dad being a binge alcoholic she can't really depend on. This is certainly not because you are unlovable or that anything is wrong with you. This has to do with your husband who is more about his binge alcoholism that will get worse over time and how that is a priority to him.