Thanks christina, ps, fuzzybear, bb and pj56 ! !

i've written a few posts in here before and deleted them, not sure why, maybe cuz im ashamed or embarrassed how i feel - that it makes me vulnerable. Your responses tho really helped me, thank you for each one - glad i didn't erase the post. Ummm, some of you may get an IM one day - it means alot that you offered.

You got me thinking with alot of your comments. It's so hard for me to ask for help when im hurting - so afraid i'll be made fun of or ignored - never thought it was pride - but it probably is partly pride. Ya and I suppose even the Waltons might have a bad hair day....lol.