Just something interesting I noticed yesterday. I have become an increasingly nervous driver. I am extra cautious because I don’t trust people on the road. I drive on a highway every day to go to work, same highway I’ve been driving on for 14 years almost daily for some reason or another. I have never been nervous before. But now I am. I triple check my mirrors when changing lanes, and cringe anyway, waiting for the crash that would come if I somehow didn’t see another car. I don’t like people driving next to me or passing me on the highway either, in case they don’t see me and try to come over. I see myself getting into a crash no matter where I’m going. When A light turns green, I still double check both sides as if it were a stop sign because I don’t trust the other drivers to stop. I don’t like driving at night because of the glare. I just see and feel crashes everywhere. I’m waiting on edge for my car to be totaled and me or my family to possibly get injured or killed. I’m wondering if this is an effect from stopping haldol. I definitely wouldn’t consider it paranoia, but my psychosis usually manifests as paranoia. But then, I’ve never been psychotic outside of an episode and I haven’t had a true episode in two years. The one back in September was situational.

I guess the haldol could have been helping with anxiety, in a way, and now that I’m off of it I’m more anxious. But then it’s always good to be a cautious driver, right? So I guess there’s no problem right now. If it gets out of hand to the point where I am uncomfortable driving at all, then it’s a problem. But for now, it’s just something I’ve noticed.