It's just that he left because he couldn't help me. He wasn't strong enough to handle my outbursts. He was getting SU because of me (he said so). He felt like he was relying on me too much as I took care of him for a year and 4 months. I feel like it was all my fault.
I think he really is having fun because he is back with his friends, family and son. They are doing things they used to do when we lived there that he enjoys and his emails and IM's are different now than they were before he left...they are happier sounding...but I know what you are saying because I am letting him believe that I am happy so he doesn't worry.
I can't promise I will eat, but I will try at some point.

You are just fine and I know you care....thank you....for everything.

BJ