Ya know, even though my ex is the whole way across the other side of the US....I still get online and feel that fear that he's lurking...watching every tiny little thing that I'm posting...everything I say--nothing is safe.

Even here on PC I get so afraid that he will get on here and find me and stalk me more and more like this parasite...infecting each and every part of my life again. I wish I could leave him behind but just the fact that I know he's out there somewhere trying to get to me scares the hell out of me.

Like I have a facebook account and so does he. Well every once in awhile I get these little notices in my email saying he's voted me as a favorite match on one of the applications on there. And it's not like it hasn't been recent...that's happened within the last couple of weeks! Maybe I'll just cancel my facebook account...that way I don't even have to deal with it!

Just anything with his name and I get so scared...like I'll never be safe again...