I am really considering staying at my parents for some time but before I do I want to be completely sure about it. I just don’t want to repeat that cycle either. We went to church this morning and it’s just not the same. I could barely even let him hold my hand. I’m afraid to be receptive to him and allow him to be intimate with me.

I went because of an incident that involved him becoming verbally and physically abusive with me while I was 7 months pregnant and holding our 1 year old... WOW that sounds horrible as I’m typing it. This happened when we were going to counseling together. They told me they would report it to Child Protective Services which I expected. They said it was entirely up to me to leave him or not. I went to a few meetings but stopped going after our relationship got better. I can see how this sounds. I’m am a hopeless romantic. But I am being completely honest.