Thank you so much KJ and CedarS. I really do appreciate all the hugs and they really do make me feel better.

I didn't even think about doodling calming the little. That is so observant because I never gave her the chance to draw before. She colors, but not draw so it must relieve something. It's good for me too because it's distracting.
I drew something and gave it to T. It starts with a small sort or squiggly circle and I keep adding to it with little squiggly circles and continue until the paper is full. I took it in and after a couple of minutes checking it out she asked "is this what you feel your mind is like" and I looked and said, "yeah, actually. That is just what it's like." She said "looks very chaotic" I just shrugged. I do that doodle ALL the time.