Thanks Open Eyes! It's not an easy pill to swallow....but for once in a long time I'm starting to feel content...I don't know if it's initial euphoria or what. I'm going to keep moving forward.
I understand about the relationship boundaries but I've also seen (albeit the surfaces) of couples or an individual who is in a relationship who seemed to be working towards each other. I understand that we're working towards being the people that we want and need to be for our children and if what we are doing is what is needed of us to go there then at some point we'll either meet at the crossroads or keep walking our paths. I'm trying to not linger anymore than need be on the what ifs and work on the will and can do's. I am 2 weeks and 3 days clean...and it's not been easy even now. So thank you all so much. I may be writing in here less but that doesn't mean I don't have your advices and voices running through me when I leave the keyboard