Today i just got my plans ruined by something i couldnt control and now im obligated to WAIT and FAKE for about another month (or more).

wait to do something that feels like a SH urge to me

and fake, meaning pretend with everyone all is well with me and never talk about anything that is troubling me with anyone.

it looks like it will be a hell of a month.

i got to make it for a few months up to now. i thought it was time to relax now and instead im asked to wait and fake for another month. i dont know if i have the energies, the strength and even the will to keep doing this for a whole another month (and maybe more).

how can i cope and deal with it?

anyone can help please?