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The_little_didgee · Mar 02, 2020, 03:06 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm so sorry you went through that. I had a similar experience and will never go to the ER for a psych reason again.

Something that's important to note is that the standard BP "you must have mania for 2 weeks or more", etc. is being strongly challenged in the psych community. More and more, BP is showing to have a varying degree of mood changes.

Thanks. I didn't think my experience was unique. Psychiatry is quite dismissive of people who don't easily fit into a diagnostic category.

I'm upset, because I want to forgive myself. I need relief. I need to clear my conscience.

I originally posted this thread because I wanted to determine if I had a manic episode or some kind of psychosis. Something definitely happened. I'm not sure how long it lasted. It took about two months to fully recover.

I'm not looking for a BP diagnosis. I just want to understand what happened when I was 18.

What really bothers is the lack of judgement I had and the things I did. For example I ended up in a situation that was extremely out of character. Something that I would definitely never do.

Guess what? I was blamed for it, for an inappropriate sexual encounter. The guy knew I was sick and took advantage of it. Psychiatry condoned his behavior. I was told it was due BPD. No one took me seriously at all. So it was all my fault. I created all my suffering and the illness.

I was misdiagnosed, but that doesn't relieve my guilt at all.

No one gave a damn.