We talked about living in small town - possibly running into ex T - the reality that he will not behave towards me in the way that I would want him to. I knew that of course, but I also didn't really know it on some level, and having my current T say this out loud made me realise it more. Her making a reference to me saying goodbye to [ex T] at some point made me cry instantly, as I realised that I really have to say goodbye to him (in my head), and that I will really never spend time with him the way I want to. I'm so sad about that