No one can be mad at you for speaking your feelings. I myself feel the way you do sometimes. The best thing to remember is that (which has been mentioned before) the event is temporary, you are more than just the event.

The event is over physically after a few seconds, minutes, or hours. How you deal with it can last a lifetime yes, but remember, you survived this much because you are a strong person inside, even if you do not feel so.

I have known things about myself that made me feel miserable. But it is easy to keep thinking to myself and making myself miserable, when those others involved in the past events of my life are not even thinking about those things anymore. I do not mean to imply to feel and think about the past is not normal, or natural, it is. But I do believe, that you are a strong person. You would not of reached out for help if you did not feel the need. Use this event as a positive, the event of all of us trying to help you, and may there be nothing but positive events and people the rest of your life.

Nice meeting you!