I'm so unhappy with my hobby, Scrabble. It's so unpleasant. It's just slightly better than doing nothing. Boredom could drive me to things that are unhealthy tho. I just wish i didn't dislike it so much. I've been playing for 20 years. It's not like i'm going to change horses now. Please don't suggest other hobbies as i have tried over 30 and the only other things i like a bit are knitting and listening to music.

I feel i need to pass the time but is it any solution to pass it in an unpleasant way? I heard about some workers who were so bored at their jobs that they photocopied phone books. Scrabble's like that for me. Scrabble's just a menial meaningless miserable activity.

Or perhaps it's just the depression talking and i would not enjoy anything at all?