Hi Blue,
I'd replied in the check-in thread. I want to modify my response a little.
We've talked some about how this has gotten out of hand in the past.
My first suggestion: Call your pdoc.
My second suggestion: You stay home, or go home, from work in order to be sure nothing happens at work. Preserve your job.
I am very concerned. This sounds like it's the worst episode since I have known you?
My third suggestion: If you truly cannot go home, isolate as much as possible. Calm yourself, if possible, with breathing exercises or with any strategy that helps.
Please be very careful. You could easily lose your job. You could hurt yourself/others with road rage. You could get into an altercation in any setting.
The safest place for you right now: home or at the ER
This is just my very humble opinion; however, my opinion is an educated opinion -- educated by you.
Please be very careful, Blue. Be safe. Don't take chances.
You know I care.