Well, I've been there (violent rage) about 500+ times. And I was arrested 2 times for it.
Personally, I don't think it's any big mystery...I believe that the ferocious anger you've described is due to brain chemistry and needs to be dealt with as such.
Now that you're home have you taken a prn?
I commend you for posting to us. It's a great way to reach out, blue.
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