Hello,
It is very touching this untitled thread by you, I can give it a name after ur permission of course, "my unworthiness",
Aint going to analyse anything! I'm only going to let the water running in its flow,
I'm experiencing the same with you but in different levels,
Sometimes I feel happy, willing to tell jokes, teasing everybody, my mouth can't stop laughing and calling PPL by names...
Often times, I feel that I'm struggling to make the least sound coming out my throat! Need to be alone, on my own! Kinda power cut!
Experiencing short break for self evaluation, sometimes my power outage happens with no evident reason!!
The human brain keeps turning and in one day u can have more than 2000 thought and idea, some of them are positive, and some of them are negative, and if a negative thought sneaks inside the mind u know! Like a virus!
What's the virus???
Biologists claim and confirm that a virus is a program, thrown somewhere in the nature, powerless, inefficient! Waiting for an occasion of transportation to a living organism, only that time a the program starts working! Destructive task!
So the negative thoughts are like a virus, we are in vulnerable position against them! Can't be protected even if we try to create a high strong wall of defense! Negative thoughts would always find a way-in to mind!
This regarding the first part of feeling low, not in the mood,
Your second part was about feeling guilty to dream to breath, to.....
Same with you also! I make a plan, I achieve s work, I contribute by something I say or I do in order to solve a problem or to fix something by good intention, then sometimes I feel like everything I do is like hitting a wind by a baton!! Pointless!
I feel unworthy even to think!
Sometimes I feel like am about to quite! I have to!
But I remember that there are so much PPL to prove them wrong!
I have my own reasons reacted with my own environment and my own experience in this life,
May be what caused your unworthiness has to do with your childhood, not being well loved in the family,not loving yourself enough, having bad self image of your body and your capacities wrapped in the low self confidence...
In order to overcome that unworthiness inside you I want tell you, try to be merciful with yourself with your heart, take it easy,
When u wake up morning the first thought that u let in your mind effectively it will be the electricity that lights on your day as it could be your gloom,
Be the controller of your thoughts, all the negative thoughts in this world can do nothing to you unless u let them sneak inside!
Think that you are there for a reason, without you lot of things can't be done! U are important, productive, lot of lives are depending on u and on your smile.