Well, no response from my therapist. I even left a voicemail for my pdoc's "assistant" out of pure desperation. No response from that lady either.

It makes me wonder if they even care or take this seriously. Maybe they would have responded if I was honest and said i feel like a danger to everyone. But I don't want to go to IP when this could be handled over the phone, so I didn't say that.

I am not even depressed, but it makes me want to die because the feeling is awful. I am trying not to do things I would regret, such as ******* someone out or damaging ****. I can be a very violent person when my anger gets out of control, and well, I do not want to hurt anyone if I can avoid it, either emotionally or physically.