(((Pegasus))) I think for me when I use to active look for friends, when I used to judge how worthy my existence was by how many people I could add to my mobile phone. ...Now its shifted, its nice if someone thinks of me or wants to talk to me, but my existence doesn't depend on that, it depends on me finding what fulfills me each day, and each day I start anew at that task, what worked for me yesterday may have to be moved about the next...reading a book yesterday may have help relax me but today I need to just sit quite...its finally finding this little things I do-for-myself that have added depth to my existence...you sound like your feeling inside out ???