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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
I am sure it is very tempting to tell them both off!
There is time for that later on. Right now, we need a strategy to get you back into a better space. You have a good job and you don't want to lose it.
You don't want to go as far as to lose your life.. 
It feels like you are "stuck" and there is some kind of a standoff. Maybe there is? Maybe not? You said it yourself a few posts ago you'd thought maybe you should say more to them than you have been saying?
There is a disconnect here. How do we fix it?
Remember, unless you go to the ER or other, you need your pdoc and your therapist in order to get what you need to settle down.
How can any of us help?
I know I want to help and I am starting to feel like I am spinning wheels, wondering what you really want to happen, Blue.
Do you truly want to give up?
I hope not.
Maybe just upset?
Hang in...  |
Ehh, I don't see the purpose in trying with these people anymore. Or maybe my expectations are too high. I thought if you called them desperately asking for help, that they would respond to you within the same day. So maybe I am just expecting too much out of these people. Maybe I am in the wrong?
If I see my therapist on Friday, I will probably flip a **** and swear at her because I'm mad at her. I don't know how else to say I am fuming mad when I literally said, "I am VERY, VERY, VERY angry," and "I am severely pissed off" several times in my voicemail. I even mentioned that I had to isolate myself at work so that I wouldn't get into an altercation, physically or verbally. But I guess that's not a pressing matter in her eyes.
If I get in a fight with someone, it'll be her fault and my pdoc's fault for ignoring me.
I don't know what I want for help. I just want to talk to someone to figure out how to relieve some of this anger. I am already destroying half my apartment and I'm having to isolate myself. But no, they couldn't care less about that.
I seriously feel like cancelling my therapist appointment because I don't want to deal with her stupid ****. She is utterly useless right now, as is my pdoc.