"I don't need emergency care."

This is what your therapist and pdoc are hearing. It is drowning out any other signal you may be giving them.


I honestly believe there is/has been a disconnect.

Most pdocs and therapists get into their professions because the want to help. There are some who maybe are not the best.

The odds that you'd get two practitioners who simply do not care?

Isn't it more likely they have been getting a mixed message from you?

Why not say: I really need to talk with you?
Or: I really need your help?

It's much more direct than the approach you'd said you were using AND it shows a clear desire to talk with her. You'd be making a specific request. No confusion.

You know we all care. I'm not criticizing you. I am trying to help you to see some of what's been going on.

You have recently "gone to the mat" in defense of your T !
I believe you believe all of the great things you've said about her.
I don't think the T you'd so vigorously defended would decide she just does not care about you.

It's not that they do not care about you. It IS more that you need to decide what you want … and express it with clarity.