Today is the one year anniversary of my father's death. It's weird. I have so many complicated thoughts about him. But it's still sad. I've been distracted all day, not by thoughts of him, but just in general. I even forgot I was going to go to a church thing tonight.


I think my washer broke which will be expensive to repair I'm sure. And it won't be fixed by the store I bought it from as they went out of business locally so I'll use the one local appliance repairman. I should get on his schedule for about 2 months out based on my mom's experience. I'm hoping if I try again it will magically spin.


My mom is coming to help clean tomorrow. I have been depressed and not doing a great job with the housework. So I've been trying to fix the disorganization at least somewhat before she's here.


Anyway I think I can fall asleep and if I can that's fantastic.


Good night and thoughts/prayers to all who need them.