Hi there, I'm totally new, never posted in any forum before! But I'm desperately trying to recover myself so here goes...

My husband and I have been together for 12 years years, married for almost 5. He tells me he wants to leave and can see a better life without me. However he hasnt left yet and says he doesnt know what he wants, hes still making plans with me and asking how I am. He's telling me he feels terrible.

Me - well I've had some kind of mental breakdown in the past few days, I am nauseous (vomited bile and retching), dry mouth, shaking, legs and arms feel tingly, heart racing, hot and cold, breath tight. I guess its panic attacks? But seriously this has been 3 days now. Has anyone else experienced this? I talked to counselling service and they believe this abandonment has triggered other truama in my childhood. Has anyone else been through something similar?

I dont know how to cope with this physical overwhelming symptoms.