Good morning, blue!

I hope you have gotten some rest.
I am sorry your GI is now giving you problems. Do you have anything on hand to help with your stomach?

I do understand your conflict. If you sound the alarm too loudly, you might end up IP.

Have you and your T ever talked about a plan should you go into crisis? just wondering if you have done so, and if so, might recall some of it.

You are between a rock and a hard place, for sure.

Is there any chance at all that you have not been able to tell your T (on voicemail) all you have shared with us re: what you have told her? What I mean is: Originally, you'd told us you'd given her very limited info and you'd told us which info. When we'd urged you to give her more info, you'd replied with a list of things you have told her and this list did not match the first list you had shared with us. I am wondering if there are possibly some misunderstandings simply because of your current psychiatric status? I'm wondering if you think it's possible you have not given her the info you think you have given to her?

I think you do know I care. I think of you as a good friend, even a sister. We have spent quite a bit of time together at times. We have some great conversations. We've laughed together, we've complained together, we've supported one another. I am trying very hard to help you find a viable solution. I am very SAD you are having an exacerbation of illness and that I cannot seem to reach you or cannot seem to find a solution you can accept.

I am very concerned and very SAD that I cannot help you to find a way to get what you need. I hope you will find a solution you CAN live with. I hope you will keep yourself safe until you are able to get help. I am not sure of what to suggest next. I'll think on it, Love ya, kiddo !