we've only known for just a month when i held her hand. i don't know if she was shocked or something by what i did. 3 months had already passed... and i'm still wondering whatever she might think of me. if i would explain to her, i might turn out to be senseless. i don't even know the rationality behind what i did. but one thing's for sure i do have special feelings for her. and i would never want to tell her. it would be great mess!