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Originally Posted by fern46
I think anger can be a mood state. I think in your case your therapist was working with a very limited set of information that did not acurately depict the state of affairs. Rage is different than controllable anger.
I believe she may have counseled you differently if she could have read you posts here or known about you breaking objects, feeling like you would harm others, not eating, or harm yourself if this didn't stop. She might not have ended with offering coping skills as a way forward if she knew you didn't want to be with your family because you feel like it might burden them and that you feel you've tried coping skills and they aren't working.
I feel it is unfair to judge her assessment as inaccurate if you don't offer the whole picture. I am very glad your pdoc got back in touch though. I hope the new Rexulti dose works for you and you find some relief soon. I know you're very uncomfortable and want things to improve.
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I did tell my therapist that I am throwing/breaking things right now. She also knows that I had done that in the past as a teenager, and that I have been physically violent with people before. I just didn't want to tell her that I felt physically violent during our session, as then she might have involuntarily committed me or at least freaked out.
Anyway, she said it's "good" that I am not physically or emotionally hurting people at work, and she says that it shows that I have some form of "restraint." I don't know. I said that I isolated myself so that I wouldn't do anything that I'd regret. I didn't want to b**** people out, because I can be impulsive when I'm angry.
I did mention the eating problems, though. I said that my stomach pains and discomfort irritate me to a degree, but that it's not THE reason I am pissed. It only exacerbates the "pissiness." But yeah, I know that most people aren't exactly "happy" when their stomach feels like it's being physically squeezed and twisted to the point it causes great discomfort and nausea.