Okay, so I would like to copy this comment you made into my journal and I hope that is okay...I won't include your name and anyway I am the only one to see it. Because what you said here is exactly what I wish. It is like a blueprint I want to make my own. Yes, I will admit that severe depression (which seemed to be treatment resistant) was a factor in my isolated state. There were also multiple other factors that contributed. Thank you for giving me the hope that I might benefit from this situation...and as well...move on from it.